May 10, 2005

Redefinitions are hard!

My last post was over two weeks ago. Fortunately, Micahs been picking up the slack for me, but, well, that can't go on forever. So we've stumbled across yet another way Tyler will be trying to redefine himself. Its good though, I'm long overdue for a tune-up.

You see, I'm a very "live in the now" guy. Not so much in a carpe diem, or live every day as if its your last sense, I'm just as lazy as the next guy. Well, currently the next guy over would be Craig, and those of you who know him would know that last sentence is a lie. But I'm definately as lazy as the guy after him. My problem, when it comes to being "in the now" is that I have absolutely no clear picture of the future, and its very easy to let the past slip away.

One of the reasons I'm taking this trip is to help inspire a more coherent vision of my future life. My brother is a great planner, and he has vision enough for the both of us right now, and I need to find out what makes him tick. What I do have is blind confidence. Tyler does not fail in his tasks, even though he never has the forsight to prepare for them.

The other trouble I have is that I lose the past quickly. I love the world. Its fantastic, beautiful, inspirational... magical. It moves through me like the wind through the treetops. I relish every moment of it... even when I'm feeling sorry for myself. That in itself is a wonderful thing, except I have to actively force myself to take a moment here and there to record a little of it. I just catch myself resisting it.

That is what this is all about. Micah gave me a new camera, Which will aid in my recording process even though I'm a terrible picture taker.

Oh well... look forward to more frequent, blogs... I'll be back.

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